Disconnect

I am sure everyone can relate to what I am about to share.  I am not who I want to be.  I am not living the life I want to live.  I often find myself thinking, "WAIT!  STOP!  This is NOT what I signed up for!"  and "Who's life is this, anyway?  Surely, it's not mine!" 

So what's going wrong between what I am doing, what I am saying, what I am not doing, what I am not saying and what I want to be doing/not doing, saying/not saying?  Where did this all go wrong?

I am a visual person and I see myself pulled over on the highway of life scratching my head, mulling over maps and wondering how I ended up in this location.

I've been feeling this way for a few years now.  And I think I finally understand some of the turns and missed turns that have led me astray:

• Unrealistic expectations
• Poor financial planning
• Lack of self control
• Self seeking
• Materialistic obsession
• Commercialism
• Heart breaks
• Lack of confidence
• Lack of understanding 
• Lack of discipline
• Lack of priorities
• Dependence on everything undependable
• Fear
• Anger
• Jealousy
• Attitude

That was not a fun list to compile, but it feels good to just put into print.  It's the truth.  No good can come from denial and attempts to hide it.  The only way to change is to accept what needs to change.

 This is what this blog is going to be all about!  Me working with God to change all that above, to fulfill my destiny: to daily die to self, and be transformed, made more like Jesus with every breath He grants me!

On the vine,
Rhiannon

More Than a Feeling

I love adventure, don't you?  Sometimes I forget to realize that my life is an adventure, even on the "ordinary" days.  I have decided to start this blog today to dream, document, share and rejoice on my adventure with God.  This adventure has many areas: parenting, marriage, friendships, art, business, homemaking, discipleship, health, finances, etc.

I chose the name "More Than a Feeling" for my  blog because I want my life to be fully holy, fully spirit-led, fully motivated, empowered and shaped by love.  And love is so much more than a feeling.  Love is everything.  Love is a noun, but should look much more like a verb if you have it.

I (like everyone) have a lot of things not working in my life, many things that need to change and many things that need improvement.  I am a human.

I chose the website address "15 Fruit" because of John 15.  I want this to be my cornerstone truth.  I want to be kept by the glorious truths of John 15 and to operate fully from John 15. 

God is the vine.  I am a branch.  I am nothing outside of Him.  But in Him I am blessed beyond my wildest imagination and I am made new, made holy, made pure, made righteous, made beautiful and I am made victorious. 

This blog will explore and document my adventure in being made more and more like Him and more and more of who I am lovingly meant to be!

I am excited to document this journey filled with uncertainty, trials, temptations and victories!

A branch on the vine,
Rhiannon